The world seen through my eyes and all the bits in-between

Loving Cardiff, living away from home and looking forward to speaking French again!

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 17:14:01 GMT

Hey Guys!!!!!

Wow, it's been a while since I've posted! Anyway, the transition to Uni life and independence has been great but also hard as was expected!

I have loads to share with you when I get back which isn't long now, I'll be home on the 18th! I'm really looking forward to it, I can't wait to hit the town with you all and share some more great times with you!

See you very soon, love from

Squibs, a new-found megavirgin!

- XXX -

My last day at home

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 08:02:59 GMT

Hey guys!!

So, this is it, my last day here, living in my own home, sleeping in my own bed and annoying all the family whose around to annoyed! It feels so weird to be leaving them all behind... Anyway, this is a quick post which I'm going to try to keep short to say that these past seven years, or eight with some, have been great and that you've all taught me so much about myself and life in general. I'm really going to miss those Englsih lessons and all those tests and timed essays we used to complain about so much!

I think that great things lie ahead for all of you and I'm sure that you're all going to do really well at Uni!!

Peace out and GOOD LUCK!!

Squibs xxxxx

Living with all girls and having a cork wall

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 17:26:20 GMT

I got my accomodation pack through today and I was slightly annoyed when I saw that I got my 8th choice! That and it's an all-girl hall.

I won't hide that my first reaction wasn't the best but then I found loads of advantages:

Girls get PMS, I mean they understand it, so I won't have to worry about not being in a good mood all the time.
They get the whole thing about shoes and hair, I don't need to worry
They get stressed about exams, just like me
We all get a cork wall, which is why printer has not stopped working since I found that out
My cousin now HAS to come and see me!

I mean there are also disadvantages but then, there always are aren't they?

At the end of the day all that's left is a photograph...

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 17:12:25 GMT

I was looking at a picture on holiday, until there nothing special. It was a family walking along the sea-front and they looked happy all together, but we all know that behind every photo there lies a story.

So here's the story:

The little boy is older than his sister. She's protected by her mother and father, smiling away between them with her hair in plaites. Her brother is stood next to his father, hands in his pockets with a handsome smile on his face. He's quite the young gentleman... At a first glance this is just another family enjoying the after-war period with its freedom and opportunities. Another picture among many others in an old family photo album. The photo holds many secrets though. Such as a strained relationship between mother and son, husband and wife and a younger sister who simply by living prevents her older brother from growing up...

The most striking thing about this picture though is that without the story to go with it, it's another picture of family love.

Thank-you

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 14:57:13 GMT

This is a quick posting to say thank-you to Hairy for his posting on his site!

Check it out: www.soweirdproductions.com

Moving on to new things

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 14:12:27 GMT

So last night two people left. It was both exciting and scary. Both Rachel and Cesca have moved on to new things which is really good for them but it also shows that things soon have to start changing for me too and that's something that I've always been apprehensive of. On the other hand though, I'm really looking forward to uni and I know that Cardiff is where I'm supposed to be.

Still, things have to change and I know it. I might as well look forward to it.

The main purpose of this posting though is to say that I'm really going to miss my girls. I mean I was at primary with Rachel and I remember her coming for lunch on a Friday, our sleepovers and mud pies. All the things that I've shared with you are very special to me and although we've sometimes crossed words and clashed I still think that you're a very special person. As for Cesca, well , let's see, I've seen her every day of my life for the past 7 years, well almost every day. Her leaving just seems very strange and it still hasn't sunk in yet... Still, I know that some very special things lay ahead for you and that a new chapter starts for us in the UK. I miss you already!!!

As for those of us who are still here, some good partying still lies ahead for us and I'm really looking forward to it!!

Driving....... is now such a pleasure!!!

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 10:43:48 GMT

HA!!! I passed! I got my test, I'm so pleased!!!!!!!

So yeah, that was all, keep off the roads though, coz now I've been set free!

What's in your ipod this month?

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 17:26:21 GMT

Ok, so I've been browsing the net and having a little listen and I have to admit that I LOVE THE NEW HILARY DUFF song! You might all think that I'm mad but it's really catchy and just reallly fun. It's got a really fresh sound and is completely different to her usual stuff, even though it's the smae style... Ok you know what that made no sense but check it out for yourself and let me know what you think!

Listen to Hilary's new song here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0bNNLuJxu98

An account of my day

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 17:53:43 GMT

So, the last few posts have been very depressing. Today nothing's happened but in an attempt to tell you about something in a more positive way I think that I'll make a list of all the good things which have happened to me recently:

I went to see Miami Vice, so now when I see the adverts I can think about it and how good it was, there's a review in the review section.
I've been looking at laptops which means that Uni isn't that far away and I'm getting really excited!!
I went to Church and there were only 18 of us which meant that all the songs were done a capella which was really fun
I know that Dan got into his first choice Uni and I'm really pleased; plus he admitted that I was to be listened to 'coz "Squibs knows best"

And the bad thing: I have been driving, but things are looking up, I'm getting better and am starting to enjoy it... somehow though, I think that learning to drift and finally being allowed to drive fast has had something to do with it!!!

Anyway, the test is on Friday so fingers crossed!!

xxxx Squibs

Today and a general feeling of frustration and annoyance!

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 17:56:53 GMT

I keep coming on here and not knowing how to express myself. I guess I could say I have writer's block, but then I'm not a writer and to say that would mean that the problem is only temporary, and that would be a lie...

I'm feeling annoyed because Uni hasn't started yet and I still haven't heared from Cardiff. I should be sending them forms now but I don't have my student number which is a problem... It also means that there's a chance that they could say no and that would mean changing everything... Thinking of this makes me think of Nat, I have no idea how she's dealing with this... I'm thinking of you.

I'm getting frustrated because people have started packing and they have a big summer trip, all mine fell down the drain. New York, London, Barcelona, tour of Italy, tour of Europe... All these things that I said I would do and I haven't, all because I couldn't get organised. Now I see all my friends going off and doing their thing while I sit at home and think of all the things that I could have done and haven't... I don't envy them, I'll take it as a learning experience, but the "summer of my life" will be pretty dull in a few years time when my kids ask me what I did when I left school...

I'll continue on a dull and fed up note: I have to re-do my driving test in a week too, that'll be fun; in the most boring possible way ever!! I don't see the point in it at all and I'll most probably fail it again, so what's the point? I have to go back and have more lessons, in the meantime though there are loads of idiots on the roads like the two loons who almost simultaneously made me have an accident today, and no it was NOT my fault, who can just go on and drive wherever they like! Stupid system!

So yeah, this has been the overall mood of the day and the past week, I'm not angry and I'm not annoyed at anyone in particular but think of it this way, I'm still stuck in the in-between zone I was in in June. I just can't shift from it and it's tiring...

Celebs and charities and all the other things which have been bugging me recently

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 17:33:18 GMT

We all know celebs, we see them in adverts, on posters, on the cover of magazines, advertising for magazines and on the adverts inside the magazines! Needless to say that when it comes to media, celebs are everywhere. The thing is though they have so much money and are in the public eye so much that they all seem to set trends. Fashion trends, musical trends or speech trends seem to be pretty much the norm: a new trends announces that a celeb has made it big time.

Recently however, I seem to have noticed that more and more celebs are adopting children from war zones and are setting up/supporting charities. Now before I start and the hate mail comes rolling in, I think that this is a really good thing because some charities need the publicity and celebs do show a good example in the sense that they can help charities be known and open our eyes to horros of the world that we never even knew were there or the scale of which we had ignored. I feel that everytime that I open a magazine nowadays, all celebs seem to be doing their bit for the world and trying to encourage us to do the same.

The thing is though, we don't have the same monetary funds to do this on the same scale as them and therefore many people feel inadequate when they start helping charities. I mean what can you do apart from support a charity monetarily and occasionally help out at an event? Also, most celebs get huge public recognition for their actions in favour of charities, but the ones who give most support to charities are us, the normal, regular, out-of-the-spotlight people.

I'm not ranting because I feel that there should be a war between us and celebs for "who funds and helps humanity the most", I simply feel that when it comes to choosing a charity too many of us are influenced by the choices of our fave celebs. We know that Jessica Simpson supports "Operation smile", that Britney Spears has her own charity the "Britney Spears Foundation", that George Clooney supports the defence of civilian safety in Darfur, that Angelina jolie supports orphans in the Asia-Pacific and worldwide etc.... However, I feel that too many charities get left out and that today there is competition between them to get a celeb to represent and fund them. THIS is what I'm off-colour about because it's so unfair! Some charities and social issues are scrapped from the map and our minds because their publicity is less effective than celebs' attention which catch the public eye and cause us to feel as though we should be helping "because if Richard Gere thinks that Tibetan exiles have a cause that needs defending, well then so do I!" (I'm not snubbing this at all, the Tibetan cause is a vastly spoken subject in my home to a brother who is passionate about Asia). Mental Illnesses, Handicaps, Natural disasters, Poverty in western urban cities all of these issues are wide-spread and hard to live with, yet no-one seems to mention them. I'm moaning about the fact that supporting a charity seems to have become a fashion trend and that now they seem to have to compete for the funding which enables them to act and help those who need it, that's what the problem is, not the media attention celebs are given...

Driving, what a waste of time and energy!

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 19:18:12 GMT

Ok, I've been home about two days now and I'm already annoyed!!

I had a driving lesson today, so far so good. Now I'm not very good at driving, I don't really like it and have real difficulties with it so needless to say that it wasn't going to be the best experience. Anyway, I get there in a good mood thinking that it's only two hours and that the whole thing is just something that I have to do. I get in the car and the guy takes one look at my picture and says: "Oh, well I hope that you're going to change it, your boyfriend won't like it! You could at least have closed your mouth." Ok, so this is a picture that was taken in Seconde and on which I have braces, bad skin (worse than now anyway) and bad hair, so it's not the most flattering one but I know it. I honestly didn't need to be told that but anyway, I sit there and think that it doesn't matter and just get on with it.

We've been gone for about an hour then we have to park. Not a problem, that it something that I know I can do in my Passat Estate so that was no problem. We open the bonnet of the car and he says: "Right, where do you check the oil?" Basic and important question I know but I was in a stupid little Modus thing and the engine is different. I look at it and think "it must be that thing there but I'm not sure", I'm treating this thing like an exam so I just say "I don't know" instead of risking getting it wrong. Big mistake! He looked at me like a total idiot and was like "You know what, you have a lot of work to do". If he'd asked me on my car it wouldn't have been a problem, I can check the oil levels there and everything else with my eyes shut. Ok, maybe not with my eyes shut but you get the general idea. We get back in the car and he asks me if I've started studying for the exam, for which I don't have a date in passing note, and I tell him no. At that he questions why not and I start explaining, only for him to roll his eyes and look exasparated. That was not encouraging...

When we got abck to the driving school he asked me about my exams and I told about the mention and all, only for him to say: "Well, everyone got a mention this year"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF?! I was so pissed off, all the guy did was criticise the whole damn time and it's really not very encouraging. I mean had the remarks been only about my driving it would have been ok, I would have been pissed off and all but not that bothered, but that fact they were about my marks and how I look... I just really didn't appreciate that at all. On the other hand though, the look on his face when I told him that I was going to Cardiff to study Maths was priceless.

So there we have it, how to wind me up and get me majorly pissed off in just two hours.

Wow, it's so good to be home!

Back to being me

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 18:57:20 GMT

Hey all!!!

I'm back and feel so much better since going to the UK; retail therapy really does have its uses and may I say how nice it is to be back on a real keyboard, SUCH a good feeling! Anyway, I'm back and in one piece which is good news. I survived to difficulties of being a "single" traveller, both meanings applying obviously, and of the confusion of being in a foreign country... Ok, so it wasn't all that hard but there you go, I managed it on my own which is something I feel I can be proud about.

I did a lot of interesting things too: I saw the new Pirates of the Carribean film, it was good but kinda long, and did a lot of shopping without going mad, which, again, is something that I'm very proud of. I also got to do some searching about family history which was really cool and I was really inspired for a post but didn't have web access so you'll have to wait until a later date for that one I'm afraid...

So there you have it, how to travel back in time and to feel refreshed in a few days, well, it worked for me anyway! Can't wait to get into contact with you!!!!!

Short half-holiday break thing going on here

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 17:25:13 GMT

Found out this morning that I'm off to the UK, what a surprise that was! Am leaving on Saturday and get back on the 24th, so Rach, I'm still here for your birthday as promised. Haha, will be fun though, am really looking forward to it!

Went shopping today, I don't think that I'll be doing it again any time soon though, Mum and I went mad! There was a really good-looking guy in the Jean shop though, he was very nice and very effective when selling jeans , hmmm, I wonder why he likes his job so much?!

Anyway, I'm off now to call Cesca, will post again soon!!!

A strange and pleasant surprise

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 14:40:11 GMT

There has been a world cup, we all know it. England was knocked out by Portugal and C.Ronaldo's reputation is ruined, THAT is something we all know. France got to the final but lost, we all know that too; but the strange and wonderful thing is the unexpected attitude which they've been welcomed home with.

Don't get me wrong, I thought that France deserved to win, and when you hear about the reason why Zidane got his red card you can't help but think that they deserved the cup even more. I mean, not only did they dominate the whole of the second half and all the extra time but that card was just too much, that's not the point of the posting though, and I know that most of you would argue with me.

What I'm really on about is the surprise that I had when I saw on TV after the match that every single person who was interviewed was congratulating the French team. Having lived here all my life I have seen that doing your best is not always enough and that people tend to only be more than happy to line up and tell you how crap you are after you've fallen on your face and are deeply disappointed. This time though, the team had surprised everyone so much that all they could do was admire them all, and this is a great surprise to me because it shows all of us that doing your best and keeping your head down is often just enough to win all the admiration and respect you could possibly want...

Wtf is up with this weather?!

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 17:42:16 GMT

Ok, so it's hot, it's the summer, we all passed our exams and now should be enjoying some quality sun. THEN WHERE THE HELL IS IT?! Honestly, I know that I moaned about global warming a few months ago but this is really bad!!!!

I woke up at 12 today (aaah, holidays are goooooood!) and it rained, we went into Toulouse today and it rained, we came home and it rained... Will this ever stop? I know that the planet needs water but had this whole global warming crap not started then we wouldn't have to face this changing weather which is partly the reason why I couldn't go to the sales today! I'm really not happy!!! Honeslty, when you think that each of us could save 10 000 litres of water a year, just by not running the water when brushing our teeth, this rain just seems worse!

Ok, the rant is over.

Feeling down.... but I'm told that this is normal

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 20:51:23 GMT

Ok, so the exams are over, we're all happy and should be relaxed.... Only I'm not, I'm all restless and annoyed. I wanna yell at everyone and hit and scream and shout at them, and no, it's not PMS.

See the thing is, now I have all this free time and I'm not using it and I dunno what's expected of me. I feel weird, like I'm caught between two places and I can't get free.... This is really wierd, it's as though everything is falling apart and I can't grasp at anything, but I know that everything is still the same and that nothing has started to change yet, it's just a really weird feeling.

Basically I think that I'm just being silly but then that gets me mad and makes me wanna shout at people too.... hmmmm, so if I shout at anyone in the next week, I don't mean to unless you've really annoyed me or have seriously asked for it, but either way just don't take any notice! I'm gonn have to start doing more Sport, I seriously think that this is the answer to all my frustration and bottled up energy!!

Alexia's visit and the Bac results... all in one day!!

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 11:45:23 GMT

Alexia came to visit which was really cool. It was great to see her again, she really hasn't changed and it's lovely!! She left this morning though. We had to get up at 6am which wasn't really fun, but she'll be back newt week after having lived it up in St Tropez for a week! Honestly some people have all the luck!

I'm hoping though that it'll kick in for all of us this afternoon. The Bac results are out here in 3 hours, so this is not a fun time.

I'm thinking of you guys though, I hope everything turns out ok for us!!

Love from

Squibs xxx

Finally there!!!

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 11:06:34 GMT

WE DID IT!!!!!

At long last it's finally over! It felt so good to get out of bed at 10.30am this morning, hello my life!!

Anyway, we did do out last night which was really great! Thanks Rach W for organising the evening it was really great, and thanks you guys for the wonderful time!!

Getting there...

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 10:25:22 GMT

Hey you guys!

Right, I just wanted to post a little word of congrats to those of us who have finished the Baccalaureate exams!

Well Done, just think the worst is over now!

As for the rest of us who still have a way to go, good luck and it's nearly over now!!

I'm still thinking of all of you!

Photo Album: Cesca's leaving meal

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 11:28:38 GMT

Cesca's leaving meal

Levi, Bethan and Cécilia

Anne and Emily

Charlotte

A crazy table

Looking pensive

Drinking tea

Twinny, official member of the paparazzi

Cesca and Rachael

Levi

Being silly

More Photos...

Photo Album: 28 juin - Post Exam meal!

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 11:16:58 GMT

28 juin - Post Exam meal!

Nappy and Rach

Rachie B being silly

Aww, group hug!

Two brains!!

The guys

Post-exam group

It's LOVE!!

Twinny's pudding!

Betty and Cecilia

Guy Love!

Book List: Films that must be seen!!!

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 18:03:05 GMT

Films that must be seen!!!

Beauty and the beast
This is beautiful film
starring Johnny Depp: Finding Neverland
Honestly, need I say more? (It is a great film though)
With Jamie Foxx and Colin Farell: Miami Vice
Ok, so it's full of good looking guys and hot girls as well as guns and fast cars... So yeah, I loved it, it was kinda like Bad Boys but still good. Pay attention from the start though, the opening 5 mins set up the whole thing!
The BBC version (6hrs!!!): Pride and Prejudice
This was a brilliant film and I loved the fact that so many people have seen it and that so many people love it!
With Joaquin Phoenix and Reese Witherspoon: Walk the Line
An amazing film, which well deserved the Oscar it got, about the USA during the Country music era. It's a must-see and honest, that Oscar was deserved!

Custom List: All the wonderful things you guys have said which is why I love you!

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 17:50:03 GMT

All the wonderful things you guys have said which is why I love you!

From Nappy!
In class on a Tuesday after two hours of sport! "I don't need you Rachael!" five minutes later "Can I borrow your notes?"
Rach W at least once a week
"Stop apologising for things that aren't your fault" Me "Ok, sorry" She sighs
Tom on a thursday
Waiting outside English for Mrs H's lesson when wearing a two shaded patchy pink jumper "Rachael, did you forget how to eat or something?"

Custom List: My blond moments!!

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 17:45:37 GMT

My blond moments!!

From dad
Dad:"So claimed that you were smart and could cook despite being blond and then burnt a tray?" Me:"Yeah" Dad:"Well that proved you right didn't it!!!!!" Me:"Shut up!!"
With Mum, Matt and Matt
Mum:" So Matthieu, you and your mum are for Trinidad?" Matt 1:"Yeah, it's her home" Me:" But I thought your mum was from the Carribean" Matt 2:"Trinidad and Tobago IS in the Carribean!" Me:"Oooooh" (the world cup can be educational for blonds)
Watching TV
So we're watching sheep having their wool cut and I say:"I'm glad they don't die when that happens, otherwise I'd never wear cotton again"!! Yeah, I don't think that I'll ever live that one down...
With Sarah and Kayleigh
Sarah had just expained that she burnt a candle, I go: "But why?!" thinking that this is some tragedy

Blog list: Blog list

Sun, 28 May 2006 17:00:37 GMT

Hairy's site!!
This is a wicked site! A satirical and humorous approach to the headlines of everyday's news
Sugarcult forum
This is a forum created byt he head of the French street team, so show your support people both for the band and for the creator!
Barmy's site!!!
Hey hey hey pay this girl some respect, she is family!!